Wait until you’re not high to study the Bible . . . that way you won’t gouge your eyes out ‘to get closer to God’ like this girl did

Remember, Satan can twist Scripture. So can all the legions of demons who serve him. You can be looking right at the Word of God and think you’ve detected a meaning that isn’t there, if your heart is more attuned to evil than it is to the truth.

What Kaylee Muthart did to herself was tragic beyond belief, and I feel tremendous compassion and sympathy for her. But I’m not going to pretend she didn’t do it to herself, and I’m not going to gloss over how and why it happened.

Murthart, who declares herself a lifelong Christian, responded to teenage stress by doing drugs – first marijuana, then ecstasy and meth. During one of her meth trips, the enemy was able to sow such deception and confusion that Muthart actually interpreted the Bible’s call for her to make a perfect sacrifice to the Lord as meaning she should gouge her own eyes out.

And she did:

Muthart was in a drug-induced hallucination when she had her epiphany. Her eyes had to go. “Why me? Why do I have to do this?” she prayed, pounding the ground.

Then, in graphic detail, Muthart explained how she came to be blind, near a church.

“So I pushed my thumb, pointer, and middle finger into each eye. I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do. Because I could no longer see, I don’t know if there was blood. But I know the drugs numbed the pain.”

She continued: “I’m pretty sure I would have tried to claw right into my brain if a pastor ha! dn’t heard me screaming, ‘I want to see the light!’ — which I don’t recall saying — and restrained me. He later said, when he found me, that I was holding my eyeballs in my hands. I had squished them, although they were somehow still attached to my head.”

A group of startled people rushed to help her, including the pastor — nearly 10 people in all, Muthart ventured to guess. “At some point, paramedics arrived, and I was so combative that they had to sedate me with ketamine,” she told Cosmopolitan. She fought so hard that her wrists hurt for weeks. A helicopter airlifted her to Greenville Memorial Hospital.

Doctors excised the remains of her eyes to preserve her optic nerves and prevent infection, she said. Her hospital stay lasted about a week. “I was told there’s red tissue (muscle filling the socket) and a white spot (my optic nerve endings) where my eyeballs used to be.”

Muthart has reckoned with her issues. She was recently released from a psychiatric facility and has vowed to stay clear of drugs. She started a GoFundMe to get a seeing-eye dog and will get nonfunctioning prosthetic eyes once her sockets heal.

It has been a big adjustment to permanent blindness. She has run into things at home and has trouble sleeping. Her mother is helping the best she can.

But Muthart said the episode turned her back from the brink.

“I’d rather be blind than dependent on drugs,” she said. In a strange way, Muthart now sees the light.

Tragic though it is, she’s right. She’s better off blind and reconciled to God than seeing clearly and continuing to do drugs. It’s an awfully high price to pay to learn that lesson, but that’s what happens when you mess with forces this lethal.

This is why I always urge people not to use mind-altering substances of any kind, including alcohol – a position that gets me labeled an extremist. (One guy even called me “cultist” over it.)

You are constantly under spiritual attack. You have demonic enemies who are always on the lookout for an opportunity to lead you to self-destruction. The only defense against this is a sober mind and spiritual discernment under the authority of Jesus Christ.

When you are under the influence of any mind-altering substance, you are compromised in your ability to distinguish truth from lies, right from wrong and even reality from imagination.

When you’re sober, you might have a fleeting thought that’s completely irrational, but in your sobriety you instantly recognize it as such, so you reject the thought and never even consider acting on it. The more you compromise your judgment with mind-altering chemicals, the more vulnerable you are to notions, images and suggestions you would never act on when sober.

The enemy knows this. The enemy also knows your issues, weaknesses, fears and insecurities – the ones that are always at work in your subconscious, influencing how you think even when you don’t realize it.

Every person is different, and has different spiritual vulnerabilities. I don’t know enough about Kaylee Muthart to know the roots of hers. But I do know that if you take strong enough drugs, the enemy will manipulate you in your compromised judgment by offering suggestions that play on every spiritual psychosis that was already at work in your subconscious.

The white bird along the dark path she saw, along with the man asking for a key, were not just random hallucinations. They were demonically generated specifically to appeal to her and the way she thinks, at a time when she would completely lack the judgment to critically assess what she was seeing and what was being suggested to her.

She did what they told her to do, and she believed what they told her the Bible meant, because she was high as a kite and completely divorced from the ability to understand and respond to what she was reading.

It sounds cliche to say that drugs are a tool of the devil, but that’s exactly – and literally – what they are. The enemy wants to put suggestions into your head that would lead to your destruction. He needs your judgment muddied so you’re open to these suggestions.

Whether you’re having a beer, smoking a joint or shooting meth, you’re doing his work for him. Why would you go down that road – even a little, even in “moderation” – knowing what the enemy’s intentions for you are?

Surely, you wouldn’t gouge your own eyes out. Or would you? Kaylee Muthart didn’t think she would either. Until she did. Now she’s blind for life, and she did it to herself.

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